Today is my 44th birthday. The whole world is in quarantine because of the COVID-19 virus. My wife is at work because she is a nurse. It's raining and kinda cold outside. I have been "working from home" the past 2 weeks and will be for the next 5 weeks.
I AM REALLY STRUGGLING. I laid in the floor and cried today. I can't stand it. Everything you see in me is a farce, a lie. I have to get myself together just to answer the phone. Most of the time, I don't. I'm not sure how long I can keep the fake smile on. This is the time of year that I should be coming out of the winter blues and we are all locked up and can't go anywhere. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I'm not even doing a good job hiding it anymore.
I AM REALLY STRUGGLING. I laid in the floor and cried today. I can't stand it. Everything you see in me is a farce, a lie. I have to get myself together just to answer the phone. Most of the time, I don't. I'm not sure how long I can keep the fake smile on. This is the time of year that I should be coming out of the winter blues and we are all locked up and can't go anywhere. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I'm not even doing a good job hiding it anymore.
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